Incompetence

Last night’s incident shown in national televion is one of the most devastating events ever seen live. It is, as if im watching an action packed telenovela constantly waiting for what will happen next. 

But this, sadly is real. 

It was an epic fail for the PNP policemen and the SWAT team for they didnt do their job well. They were given enough time to think of ways on how to take down Rolando Mendoza and to how to handle the tourist who were trapped inside the bus, yet still they didnt manage to do their job well. Worst,most of the tourist died inside the bus because of the former police’s rage against his fellow policemen who arrested his relatives… 

I also blame the media for not having a news blackout on this one. 

For this hostage is one of the worst I’ve seen. 

Now everyone thinks that  the country is not the safest place to live in.

 The whole country was saddened by this news.

 And because of this person and what he did to the tourist from HK, we are now a major laughing stock. An epic failure. Now being called monkeys. 

It’s humuliating. 

…

I pray for those innocent tourist who died from the event. I hope that the Chines, esp. from HK will forgive Filipinos for what happened. (

Will keep my fingers crossed…

I applied for the SEO feeds and Email marketing position last week in our office, and IDK if there’s any chance that I can get the post. I already had my exam for the email marketing post but I didnt finish it due to time constraints (we’re only given 15mins for the exam) and also, I already had an interview for the SEO feeds post and I think I did well. But still, the heads will pick on who’s the best for the said post.

I want to explore new things, and I learned a lot on being a SEO specialist for two years. I’m thankful that our office had provided a lot of materials (esp. ebooks) for the improvement and optimization on our daity SEO task. I can’t say that I’m one of the best Jr. SEOs in our company but I want to learn more on the web marketing field other from SEO, and that’s the reason why I applied for other post. 

I’ll just keep my fingers crossed and hope (and pray) for the best. 

If I’m not chosen I think I’ll just wait for the right time…

Just made this one up…

Aya and Tooya from Ayashi no Ceres (Yuu Watase)

(expect some mushy stuff here, lolz)

I never thought that I could made something like a mushy poem like this one here. My BF is one of the greatest poets around (according to me of course!) and I just made one for him since we’re now on our third month.

Also, this is my first attempt in poetry writing, lulz!

Well here it is, enjoy!

 (update: just edited  this poem because of some typo errors )

sa piling mo
nakakalimutan ko lahat ng hinaing sa mundo
pati lahat ng hinanakit sa puso ko

sa piling mo
nakakalimutan ko ang nakapaligid na sigalot
at bumubuo tayo
ng ating sariling mundo

sa piling mo
ay parang nasa alapaap ako
habang iparamdam mo sa akin
ang pintig ng puso mo

sa piling mo
kumpleto ako
espesyal ako
at alam ko
na minamahal ako

sa piling mo
ipaparamdam ko sayo
na ako’y iyong iyo
ang buong puso ko
at pagkatao ko

<3

Hoping and praying…

I can’t help but to cry whenever I feel like I’m tearing apart, and it’s not a good thing. My boyfriend didnt know this (will wait until he reads this post)until now, but I think he didnt understand what kind of hell i’ve been to right now.

So far, I’m happy that he just made a decision to take a plunge. And since there are some opportunities that had just been opened to me, I decided to do the same. It may be risky, and there may be a possibility that I can make it to another level. 

And also to be free from the insanity that I’m in right now. 

Hope and pray that me and B will pass this. 

Amen. 

Living in an inception

(from fuckyeahinception.tumblr.com)

B and I watched the most talked about movie this season, “Inception” and it’s all about a person who wants to enter someone else’s dream in order to gain one’s information. The movie has a nice concept and I must say, that I’m now a fan. 

I like the scene where Leonardo Di Caprio’s estranged wife in the movie haunts him during his inception work, and the reason is that after testing the dream machine and  be in a state of limbo, his wife Marion Cotillard (as Mal) wants to live in a world that he and her had created. Rejects the fact that Mal’s in the real world, this had triggeres her to kill herself by jumping in a hotel. Sad isint it? 

Sometimes I wonder if Im still in a dreamy state or not. There are times that everything around me is hazy, or in a world where happy endings exist, or if I enter someone else’s dream where everything and everyone is staring at me and making a fuss around me. And sometimes I saw someone familiar from a certain place where memories flocked like the birds in flight. And this makes me hope and pray to wake up in a reality that once were. 

I had a feeling of living in an inception whenever im riding in a train or jeep,  or lying in my bed with my computer on, or reading a book, or entering someone else’s house or room.This also occurs when I saw someone familiar on a certain place, only to find out that the reason while im staring at him/her is that they were close to me once, but now gone. 

It is a bittersweet feeling. 

And I want to wake up.