I want to share this piece of heaven with you

It is time to bid farewell to this blog that lasted for quite some time. I admit that it has been my soulful refuge to life’s headaches and heartaches. and ranting through this blog has made its purpose. 

it’s been months already since this last post, and I promise myself that 2011 will be the year of new beginings - new career, new blog, new ventures, and possibly new love life. I’m now a full grown woman now in mid-20’s who has learned from the mistakes in the past and now ready to face the future with or without anyone. it’s ok with me to be alone in my world and explore everything, or with someone whom i can share everything good or bad. but whatever life takes me, I will go for it. I know that God will never leave me and he will guide me in future adventures to come. 

So I want to share this - my little piece of heaven, my new tiny space in the internet, enjoy! 

New year, new decade, new planner…and new blog soon!

I was thinking of moving my blog to another blog platform-SOON.

It’s 2011, a new year, a new decade. I even had a new planner with me even though my sister gave me a new Starbucks planner that I covered with a colorful book cover (çoz I think Starbucks planners are way too dull for me, and it’s too bulky) and I already had plans for this year.

It’s been two months since I resigned, and until now im living the life of a bum (or a freelance SEO on odesk). It’s hard actually not to wake up in the morning to take a bath and to deal with the traffic and of course I miss that one… And though there had some job offers left and right, still, I would like to have a day job with the regular monday-to-friday schedule, for I had plans to go back to school this year.

And I’m still hoping to find one before the month ends.

Well anyway, I plan to move out of the i.ph platform and go back to the wordpress blog platform soon. I miss the thought of having my page being ranked my Google and to design my own header page, just like I did to Aura Perpetua and Koralista’s Commentaries. Of course I like my i.ph blog design (I customized it) but the thought of not updating this persona (rant) site makes me feel guilty, and one thing I hate about i.ph is that I can’t access the blog itself when I’m using Google chrome or Rockmelt.

And yeah, I fell out of love with i.ph because of its security features and recent spam attacks. >_<

Will post my last (sob!) post as soon as I come out with a better wordpress username soon.

Gotta go! 

It’s time to reflect (last post for 2010 on random thoughts, birthdays, christmas and new year)

It is indeed the worst year I ever had. I will end this year with no work, money and anything else that makes me sane. Everything around me seems to keep on backstabbing me until the day I went out of the office for good. But come to think of it, despite every shitty thing that happened I’m still happy for the things that occured. I managed to make myself happy in a simplest things, appreciate the smallest blessings our almighty has gave to me and to forgive those who had hurt me. The later may be hard for me (esp. those who broke my heart in million bits and pieces) still as a devout catholic that I am, the teachings of love and forgiveness has helped me to let go of all the hatred that I keep on holding on since day one. I don’t wanna seclude myself in my own prison cell, I need to break free, and to find my own path towards peace and tranquility.

I think it’s time to have close contact with friends (even long lost friends) who were there with me whenever I’m down, stressed out, heartbroken and even at times when I had my mood swings. I’m thankful that I gained lots of them, and they came from different siZes, shapes and colors (lol!) and having them means a lot to me.

Since my last birthday celebration, I prayed that everything will be ok this coming 2011, and have all my plans of going back to school while having a regular job to come true. I know in my heart that I can do this soon, I just need to push myself and to have enough funds in order to pursue this.

I’m also happy to celebrate my 27th with my bestest giirlfriends in the planet, and I love them all. <3

Also love the fact that I was bought up believing that christmas do exist and the concept of celebrating christmas. It is, a season where families gather and cheer for the savior being born in a manger two thousand years ago, as the scriptures from the Bible’s old testament had said. The scriptures fortells the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and this is where it has begun. The 25th of December marks the Christmas day because It is we all need to commemorate the day our lord came down with us to save us from our sins. It is a constant reminder that He is there for us, and because of this, we are thankful that Jesus loves us. I don’t believe that there’s no such thing as christmas, for if christmas doesnt exist, it looks like Jesus Christ doesnt born and live with us at all. And lastly, I think it’s sad to not have any christmas at all. :’(

And because of the crazy things that happened to me this crappy year of 2010, I prayed that the upcoming year will be MY year - a year of hapiness, high hopes, promises and dreams. No more emo post, no more heartaches. Just plain hapiness and contentment with God, my family, friends and loves ones.

I would like to end up this with a new year’s resolution for 2011:

1. To love myself first before loving others
2. To deposit at least 500 pesos in my back account (in bimonthly basis)
3. Update my Prulife account
4. Update my oDesk account and have a permanent online job (no more linkbuilding pls! just pure social media work)
5. To have more time in my line of commitments (Coro, sideline, reunion with long lost friends)
6. To take IT classes soon (anytime this year)
7. Buy a new cabinet for my own personal use - soon.
8. To have a new hairdo/hair color - soon. (either an anime inspired curls or a lighter color for ultra anime look! )
9. To treat myself to a massage every two months  (at least)
10. To join fun runs for a cause (especially RunRio-organized fun runs)
11. To save money for out of town trips
12. To end  up being in a good paying (but non-stressful) job soon (I think this one should be in the top list lol!)
13. To read books soon!
14. To find time to draw/sketch soon
15. To take some piano lessons soon
16. (will add some soon)

Have a blessed christmas and new year to all! 

dealing with death and heartbreaks

It is hard to deal with death especially if the one closes to your heart is now gone after giving birth. And it also hurts a lot if the one you love has never trusted you in the very begining. 

Worse, they wont even repent for everything that this person did. 

And doesnt have a nerve to apologize and to say sorry in a nice way. A sincere sorry is enough for me to make peace. 

Last week I’m grieving for the love one who had passed away for giving birth. The incompetent interns did a bad job in saving her. Though im happy that the child is now safe, but the fact that the mother has now gone in God’s pressence is still heartbreaking. 

And now it’s heartbreaking for me that someone the person that I chose has ruined the relationship because of the stupid allegations, below the belt tryst and even blackmailing me.  I mean where’d did he get the idea of me frollicking someone while im in the comforts of my own home? and to think that not texting in a few hours makes you think of me doing something “sneaky” behind your back? 

And yeah, ung rason mo na “kaya mo ginagawa un dahil yaw mo mangyari un ulit ginawa sau ng ex mo“? is simply absurd. Do I look like I’m gonna let myself be fucked by someone else?  I don’t think so. 

You can’t even give me a decent apology for every single curse and false accusations that you had said. 

I don’t think I’m gonna gonna trust you because of your actions. 

So lemme grieve and let my eyes go swollen because of these heartbreaks. And mistrust. And useless wrongdoings. 

I just only wish that he will take my cousin’s place…She still deserves to live and to see her children, especially the youngest daughter, whom she saved. 

:’(

Saying goodbye…

It’s time.

After much thought and deliberation, I decided to leave the company that I’ve been working on for the past two years.

It has been a blast. I was happy that I’ve been with them and yes, I’ve learned a lot from them. Coming from the company who currently does spam for a living, I learned the basics of doing white hat SEO, writing and blogging. Linkbuilding can be a challenge to create quality linkbacks but then, it gets really boring as time passes.

I said this because we’re currently stuck in doing backlinks through only blog commenting and forum posting, and according to some of the blogs and articles that I’ve read, it’s not an effective way to create quality backlinks anymore. Worse, it is often classified as spam.

Unless the linkbuilding schemes and methods assigned were changed then we’ll consider staying… but because of this plus the link requirements needed it has been a tedious task for me and for others as well.

It’s a good thing though that the SEO contest that the company did to enhance our SEO skills has helped me-A lot. I gained more skills as an SEO and learned everything from scratch. It’s a good thing though that my partner in the contest has let me handle the on-page optimization of the site that we used for the contest. I learned everything from searching and using necessary keywords for the blog site, blog design optimization, Wordpress CMS, installing necessary SEO plugins, explore on the google/yahoo/bing webmaster tools, social media integration and proper content placement in the blogs. Upon reading the SEO blogs, I explore and to test some different linkbuilding methods that one can used other from the usual forum and blog posting, and it is said that article posting and submission and link exchange has been most effective, along with bookmarking through different social bookmarking sites.

The things that I learned from the contest have left me thinking: I want to learn more on the site optimization and the contest has served me well. I can’t just stuck in the usual way of linkbuilding anymore; I know that I still need a lot to learn but of course I need myself to motivate and to be a master on my own craft.

And that is the reason why I need to explore more opportunities outside of my usual comfort zone. To have a new environment to live and breathe in, to challenge myself to be a better SEO specialist and apart from landing in an SEO-related job, is to explore more job opportunities based on my skills.

But then again, I’m thankful for USAP for the knowledge and the work experience that that I gained from them for the past two years. I’m happy that I created life-long friendships and relationships from the whole of the SEO team and it has been a life-changing moment for me…

And because of that I’m very grateful.

 I just hope that I could get landed on a decent job soon before the end of the year. Pls pray for me.

 **and in case there’s an SEO roaming around, pls hire me, I’ll be very good to you, thank you XOXO! :-*