A thank you letter for God for 2008

Dear God,

i want to thank you for being so good to me last 2008. it has been a year where change has happen in my life. well it’s not because Obama wins the presidential race in the US, but because of the drastic changes that occured…

first of all, it is the year where i completely let go of the emotional stress that i had before. i must say that im no longer an emo in my own right, im now a jolly, childlike and optimistic person that i once used to when i was in college. for as i enter the world of the employed and the successful, my previous employer has been cruel to me, esp. the backstabbing, bickering and sex-crazed people around it. working in a strugling underground BPO company that does online dating and porn sites has made me a monster at that time. plus the unreasonable salary with no nessesary benefits… all of these has made my life a living hell.  

but because of your help, i managed to get out of rednix online/molave internet solutions (or whatever their name is right now) and helped me to br part of USAP as a jr. ims…and it’s been one of the biggest blessings for me… the work, environment and the people has been good for me and that is why i’ve been thankful.

im also thankful God for helping me make a career move…for being a web encoder (aka spammmer)/writer has given me tons and tons of headache and stress… seeing unessesary images and reading/writing blogs that are “unholy” makes me feel uneasy and guilty, for you know that i’ve been serving you God for ages (in the church choir) and yet i’m doing all those crazy stuff for work… for all of these doesnt make any sense to me… and all of these makes me feel so ashamed of myself.

and now that im here in usap, i finally realized that i had wasted so much time doing all sorts of crap with my prevous work, and  now im doing good. and having said that, i feel so much better. the company has helped me reset my goals, of what i really wanted in my life and what i really wanted to be in the near future…

God, i also wanted to thank you for helping me to let go completely of the past, for i was holding on to someone…well it’s because i made a huge mistake on someone very close to me, i feel very guilty of it. well it’s not because i cheated on him (coz i never really done it before and i had no plans of doing it on someone else in the near future) but i made a very bad decision of letting him go because of him not helping me when everything around me seems to fall apart…and i think it’s very childish of me to do that… but then he seems to be ok and well. and he forgives me for doing that.

and for almost two years of not having a relationship i seem to grow more as a person… and it helped me to learn and love myself… and im thankful God for giving me space to groW and strength to keep me going…

for someday, in God’s time, the “right one” will come. it may be in a year or two, but then it will come. whoever that is…

and also god, i wanted to thank you for giving me such wonderful people who helped me to be in my place right now. my family who loves me unconditionally, my cchildhood friends for being there for me each and every single day, coro for teaching me not only to sing with with my heart, but also to be tough person full of confidence, my previous employer and my previous officemates who were backtabbing lesbo bitches for making me a fighter (thanks to christina aguilera for the song!) my present officemates who helped me to become more productive when it comes to work, my closest friends in the office (you know who you are!) who never fails to let me down, and to the people who captures my heart, for they are the ones who makes me smile…

i know god, everything that occured last 2008 to me may be ordinary to some, but for me it’s a life changing moment. and i wanted to thank you for that.

thank you god for such wonderful blessings.

i hope that 2009 will be much better.

till then god, and thank you.

xoxo, cristal