Anatole France
Me as an optimist sans pessimist
June 25, 2009Last night, I hade a blog post for my sideline and I chose to post something about having a new attitude with the help of self hypnosis. I made a research on the topic and there’s one thing that struck me:
I’m not that optimistic anymore. 
I’ve been down lately, always telling myself that it’s just me being single and lonely, having only the family and friends to keep me going… but no, it’s about some of my friends who wants everyone to drag them to their level.
I was once admired by my optimistic view in life and love. And even though I went through three failed relationships I managed to move on and be positive about everything, that I will find that special person who will love me as I am… and I can get everything that I want with the right mind set on to something…
But as I said earlier, there are some who wants to drag me down, and sad to say that these people are the closest to me…. their pessimistic view on work and love makes me want to lose all hope…
It’s always been like this… and it irritates me A LOT. I’ve been stressed lately and as much as I want to calm myself from everything I’ve been through their everyday comments makes me feel so down more than I used to be…
Before I went into deep slumber, I cried for the sudden realization that I had changed into a monster. It’s the worst that I’ve been through right now, and I want OUT… I prayed, hoping that these will end soon. I still had high hopes for the future and having these kind of people around me is a big hindrance to what I want to become.
Hope this nightmare will soon be over.
