Love is…

It is a sweetest stress. 

It is a killing kind.

It is something that one don’t understand.

It is a thing that loves/hates/loathes/irritates/enjoys the most.

It is a feeling that can move mountains.

It is the thing that changes you.  

It is when one can be a stalker to someone.

It sucks.

It varies from every person.

It is a thing that inspires you.

It is something that makes you complete. 

It is a thing that makes you creative.

It is a complicated thing.

It is the happiest feeling in the world.

It makes everyone worthwhile.

It makes one feel giddy inside out.

It is a thing that money can’t buy.

It is a special connection between two people.

It is heavenly.

It is the reason why we smile.

This… Love. <3 

Killing the lazy kid inside me

I tend to be lazy. I admit that. Having said so, I used to get lazy at work, on going to the rehearsals every sunday, on doing some task, and a whole lot more. Often so, My mom scolds me for being such a slowpoke, always giving me sermons for being one fat lazy bum.

As much as I want to be a reformed person by having positive thoughts in life, love and career, I want to kill that lazy old self and took one of the online jobs from TJ as a blogger. Doing this is a tremendous task for blogging is not my forte, but I still took it, for I like  to improve on my grammar and diction. (And I think I’m progressing…whatcha think?)

I also applied for some part time jobs through Craigslist. I tried to apply for some of the jobs posted and It’s a good thing I was hired Immediately. I was hired as a part time link builder, and just like any other link bulders, my job is to make quality links on their sites and rank them in any form. But what makes it difficult is that task, for it’s all about basketball and training for sports athletes. Not my forte though… 

And also a blessing in disguise came in, My good friend Josh refered me to his client for they were looking for an SEO specialist. I appplied but no avail. After a few weeks they contacted me and we had a conversation through Skype. We had an agreement and I’ll be starting on monday. Isint that great? 

So far I’ll be handling four jobs, two as an SEO specialist, then as a link builder and as a blogger. I may be insane but I really need to step on my gear and wake myself up. It’s important for me to have this for I made up my mind to go back to school by next year. And that’s why I had three sideline jobs for a moment, to save money and make it to the finish line.

Letter for loved one

 Dear _____, 

As I woke up every morning I thought I saw you beside me, and you’re sound asleep. Until I realized that it’s only my pillow and you’re the first thing that came to my mind. I never thought that I would do such a thing, cozily hugging my pillow everytime your gaze met mine in my dreams, seeing you smile make my heart melt and being with you is eternal heaven. 

Looking at you every single day makes my day right. Meeting your gaze makes me in a dreamy state. I don’t know why but every conversations that we had comes with a lovely melody whenever we spoke of each other, whatever the topic is. 

And come to think of it though there may be times that I want to get out of the office for good, you’re one of the reasons why I chose to STAY. It;s not about the salary or the ever loving SEO team or the personal space that i’d have in the office, but it is you my dear are the reason why I want to stay.  I’m not as good as you are in your field but I want to be as good as you are, We may do different things, have different views in life but still my heart belongs to you. 

And until the time I went out of the office it is you that I’m always thinking of. Sometimes I saw you already went out, and my heart wants to scream. “Pls wait for me”  I said, but my mouth becomes dry at that very moment. Hurt and sadness came along, leaving me with a broken heart. 

What inspires me to write is you my dear. As I want to excel as much as you are, and I’m trying to do and excel so that in the not-so-near future you and I will be proud of each other in everything that we do.

I really don’t know why I’m like this, you’re not even my type of guy. but still…

Dreaming of you is my fantasy. 

And seeing you is reality.

And being with you is eternity. 

I love you. 

Cristal

Pity for them

Blogging for me is a form of release from the frustrations in the world. But today it has been different. 

I’ve been ranting about someone who pisses  me off because of their attitude a few days back, and today me and one of the “cast” in my previous blog post went to a shopping spree in Cubao, looking for cheap but fashionable clothes and accessories. And along the way we talked about the “other” cast from the previous blog. (And so we’ll name her CC.)

So me and  CC logged out and went to one of the thrift shops in Cubao. Along the way we’ve talked some of our colleagues (we’ll name her L and R) and their current work attitude. L, CC and R came from the same university, L and CC were the best of friends since the college days. CC and L as of now were not in good terms, and R has problems when it comes to work attitude. R for me is one of my closest friends in the office but I admit that I was terribly annoyed by her attitude that she has right now. Her pessimistic view about everything personally irritates me and I think that she really did a great job in influencing L when it comes to work ethics. Those two as of now were the dynamic duo of negatives, and their plan is to ruin the lives of every employee who sees high hopes in our ever loving company. I was their main target, but I’m trying my best not to be influenced by them. 

Yes I rant a lot, but not to the point of making hearsays and influencing everyone to do their very worst to the company. And Lil’ ms. R really did a great job of making my office life a living hell. 

So looking back, CC and me have a chat about them, and this time, I told her everything that I felt about R and L. I was frustrated about everything that they did to the office, to their lives, and to their future. Their continous ranting scheme is like having the worst migraine ever. and it really sucks big time. 

CC has her own say about them both. L could be easily influenced, but she wonders why she can’t convince her to do more as a person. and also I’ve learned something about R that shocked me the most, and that is her possibility of having her terminated in the company because of her work attitude.

CC and I has the same opinion about R and L. What hurts about them both is that  their current attitude makes them a bunch of sore losers in the long run. As much as I tried to help them in staying in our company and help them in doing their job well they keep on ranting. 

 I really hate to see them go. But I think its for the best for all of us. 

I pity them.

*sniff*