Even in death

As much as possible, I want to stay positive in every problem that I had. but what if it has to do with death? 

It is something that I didnt understand until now. Why do we had to lose someone we love? It may be due to some dreadful disease, by a gruesome accident, or some fearful incident that occur at that time.  

But there are some people who are afraid to face death, and there are some who who wants to die now. The question is, why are they afraid to face death? and why are they ready? is there any other reasons to do this? are these people who are ready to leave this earth wants to leave their loved ones behind? 

And as for me, as much as possible I want my loved ones to be here all the time. It hurts a lot to lose someone dearest to my heart. I know it sounds selfish, but… 

… It’s the way of life.

*sigh* 

letting go…moving on…

As I look at what happened these past few days, I can say that I survived this ordeal. My closest friends left me for some greener (and less stressful) pastures and me dealing with some work-related problems that I’m currently facing right now. It’s a good thing that even without my closest allies at my side during the ordeal, I still had my newfound friends to keep me strong (and sane) at the same time. 

Now I’m slowly bouncing back to my own self, currently back to the drawing board, making plans ahead (christmas list included) and slowly making harmony with the choir. Most of them wants me back, but I want to start slow. Slowly but surely, I can do the things that I love the most in the long run.

And I’ll be starting this by updating my personal blog. There.

 Hello Cristal.  Welcome  back! <3