Reflections

I was reading my centuries-year-old friendster blog and it bought back some of the most cherished memories that I had. It was my virtual rant space from 2005 to 2008, and as I was reading it, I laughed, cried, rejoiced and embarrased, primarily because of the emotions that I put everytime I posted something.

 I documented everything from seeing my crush passed by during my college days, rants about my final requirements that I need to do during my final years in college, my first “official” love and the anger of this certain lesbian gay hag and the previous company that I previously employed. 

I realized that I do changed a lot during that time. The immaturity is clearly seen on every post, until the last of my blog post.

And now that I’m in here in USAP, I continued to change for the better.

I still tend to be tardy (as usual, the office that I’m in is much farther than the previous one) I want to have my personal space and as much as possible be more responsible in every task that I’m in… wether it is for work purposes, or for  some of my sidelines that i’ve taken. Also mentioned here is the commitments in Coro and some others.

Some may not understand the changes that I need to do in order to get it done, and it makes me think of how immature they really are… some may think that every decision that i’m in is a wrong one. But little do they know that I tend to think twice…twice…or many times before i push through with something… 

I also realized that it’s been years since I’ve been in a relationship, and confusion occurs when i think about this. I came to the conclusion that love can be a one-sided thing, an unfair feeling and something of a douchebag at the same time. But that doesnt mean that i’ve already given up on love… for now I need to face the fact that love will come someday at the right place and at the right time. I just have to wait and face a million douchebags before meeting the person who will love me forever despite my failures and stupidity.

 So there.