My personal thoughts on the upcoming Madz Et Al 2010

It’s roughly a week before the MADZ Et Al choral festival and I’ve never been so excited, and nervous at the same time. Excited because once again, our choir is back on stage to perform to the public. Nervous because of the lineup of songs, the lineup of singers in our group (since most of us were newbies) and we just found out that we’re singing the same song with one of the Et Al choirs that will perform on the same day. *sigh*

Since I was assigned as the section head in the choir, I tried my best to unite the group, esp. the sopranos. As you can see, singing the soprano part is a cruicial thing, since most of the songs are being led by us. And the pressure has been on ME, and not on my fellow voice-mates.  

But even though I’m nervous about this event, still I’m excited about this… I love the feeling of performing on stage with my fellow choirmates. The harmony that we have during the performance is just magical and the appreciation of the people watching us on stage is just great! 

Hope and pray that our performance will be appreciated by  the MADZ (Philippine Madrigal Singers), the Et Al choirs and the people who will came to watch us and other choirs perform. I’m sure that it will be a blast!

Of heartaches, shocking truths and acceptance

Yesterday I had a heart to heart talk with my buddy after a mind-blowing game of billards at USAP sportsfest. Yes it was a happy moment, and I couldnt agree more that being with him is one helluva ride.

But as we had our zesty merienda treat at one of the major malls in Mandaluyong, we unravel the age-old pages of our heartbreak stories…after I told him the series of heartache stories from my previous beaus, his was even worse.

It breaks my heart to hear the entire truth. Still I couldnt believe everything that he had said. My heart pangs as I hear every nook and crany that he had said, I was thinking, Lord, pls tell me that everything that he had said is a lie. But it was not.

I was speechless after everything that he had revealed.My mind went  blank. I want to run away, curse him like crazy. But I was just there, listening to every word that he had said. Broken, torn and almost into tears. And as I looked at him I can sense that it mustve been hard for him to tell me this…

But come to think of it, it takes guts for a man to tell everything to the girl he cherished the most the real truth about himself.

I do admire his honesty and sincerity , I give him credit to that.

And now, as I type this entry, I’m still thinking if he deserves to have my heart. After all this years, I’m still thinking if I deserve a man like him. I’m praying not for signs, but for guidance. That may God help us both in our journeys to come.

I do love him so despite our differences. But then again…

I’m still afraid to take the plunge…

May God help us both. 

Ironic (pt. 2)

It breaks my heart to tell the one you loved the most that we can’t be together because of our religious preference. 

As you can see, I’ve been there before. Religious conflicts has been a major issue for me (during my previous relationship) before and even had a major arguement with one of his family members. This however, has ruined our affair. We are both serving God through our talents, and this issue in a relationship is a big deal…

Until now.

We both loved each other but it breaks my heart to tell you everything. 

Thank you for the encouragement, the endearment, the YM conversations (that i still kept in my archives), and the smile that makes my heart melt. You made me feel loved even if it is for a while… 

I’m sorry to break your heart. I also had a hard time to tell you this and I need to tell you this because I loved you, and I don’t want to be a burden to you…Also, ayokong paasahin ka… 

I’m so sorry my dear. I really am.

*seriously needs tissues right nao…sniff!* 

~Cristal 

Ironic

Earth Run 2010 Aftermath

I am now officially dead tired and pissed off while I’m writing this, so expect some rants here… 

The Earth day run is a fun run event in Bonifacio Global City for the benefit of Greenpeace. Yes I was running for charity and for myself as well (to lose weight? yes). It was sad though that the 10k wasnt available on the event, so I signed up for the 16k race.  Little do I know that the race will gonna be a major disaster on my part.

I admit that I had made some mistakes in this event. I wasnt prepared physically due to some time constraints (rehearsals at the upcoming MADZ et al concert, overtime work in and out of the office, etc.) but that’s not it… 

The organizers of the event is also a major mess. As I registered to the event though I had my race kit with me the singlet is not available… I called/texted the organizer days before the event for my singlet (and my friend’s racekit/singlet) but no luck. On the day before the event Cris (one of the organizers) texted me and said that the race kits and singlets are already available…but as I went to Res|Toe|Run trinoma they told me that it was already out of stock, and told me that the singlets will be available after the race…AND YES I WAS SOOO DAMN PISSED OFF AT THAT TIME! 

And so before I went home, I had to make a detour to SM San Lazaro to buy some extra singlet (for the event end future gym use), went home, fix things while doing some files on the internet and went to sleep. 

Woke up early for the event and I was suprised that my best buds are not here! Isshi, who I think influenced me to join the running spree went with her officemates and Eric was still sleeping as I called him on his mobile. And so I was alone during the event. 

Gun starts at exactly 5:30am and we went off. I was happy to run at the Buendia Flyover again, seeing the not-so-breathtaking view of Makati, feeling the windy morning chill and  the seeing the people on all ages running all over Makati and Taguig.

I started to feel some muscle cramps as I approached Mckinley Park.(refer to this map) My thighs are now offfically tired so I was now in a slow pace… The sun was up at this time, heat has became my worst enemy. Water stations are two miles apart. I was about to give up…but not yet. I looked backwards to see if I was the last runner in the bunch and saw some who were running for 16k and 21k. 

I can’t give up just yet.

I whispered a little prayer to God to help me finish the race, even if it means I was the last on the 16k bunch. I’m just simply thankful that He’s there to give me enough strength…

…And I finished the race in two hours and 30 minutes. Definitely not a good PR (personal record) for me. But before I went home I grabbed my bag at the package counter, got my freebies (hurray for free granola bars and headcaps!), had a hearty breakfast (alone :c) and went home.

So it was a bittersweet experience. As much as I want to enjoy the lovely scenery of the Bonifacio Global City,Serendra and Market Market, I can’t. It was a sad experience for me. As much as possible I don’t want to think that I was wasting my money on this one. True that I love to run, but it’s no fun to be alone as well.

Next fun run will be the the Runrio Trilogy 2nd leg (aka nature valley run). Registration is more costly than some pervious fun run events but will be looking forward for this one! (and I hope everything went well in the event.)