Anatole France
Of heartaches, shocking truths and acceptance
April 27, 2010Yesterday I had a heart to heart talk with my buddy after a mind-blowing game of billards at USAP sportsfest. Yes it was a happy moment, and I couldnt agree more that being with him is one helluva ride.
But as we had our zesty merienda treat at one of the major malls in Mandaluyong, we unravel the age-old pages of our heartbreak stories…after I told him the series of heartache stories from my previous beaus, his was even worse.
It breaks my heart to hear the entire truth. Still I couldnt believe everything that he had said. My heart pangs as I hear every nook and crany that he had said, I was thinking, Lord, pls tell me that everything that he had said is a lie. But it was not.
I was speechless after everything that he had revealed.My mind went blank. I want to run away, curse him like crazy. But I was just there, listening to every word that he had said. Broken, torn and almost into tears. And as I looked at him I can sense that it mustve been hard for him to tell me this…
But come to think of it, it takes guts for a man to tell everything to the girl he cherished the most the real truth about himself.
I do admire his honesty and sincerity , I give him credit to that.
And now, as I type this entry, I’m still thinking if he deserves to have my heart. After all this years, I’m still thinking if I deserve a man like him. I’m praying not for signs, but for guidance. That may God help us both in our journeys to come.
I do love him so despite our differences. But then again…
I’m still afraid to take the plunge…
May God help us both.
