Anatole France
Of heartaches, shocking truths and acceptance
April 27, 2010Yesterday I had a heart to heart talk with my buddy after a mind-blowing game of billards at USAP sportsfest. Yes it was a happy moment, and I couldnt agree more that being with him is one helluva ride.
But as we had our zesty merienda treat at one of the major malls in Mandaluyong, we unravel the age-old pages of our heartbreak stories…after I told him the series of heartache stories from my previous beaus, his was even worse.
It breaks my heart to hear the entire truth. Still I couldnt believe everything that he had said. My heart pangs as I hear every nook and crany that he had said, I was thinking, Lord, pls tell me that everything that he had said is a lie. But it was not.
I was speechless after everything that he had revealed.My mind went blank. I want to run away, curse him like crazy. But I was just there, listening to every word that he had said. Broken, torn and almost into tears. And as I looked at him I can sense that it mustve been hard for him to tell me this…
But come to think of it, it takes guts for a man to tell everything to the girl he cherished the most the real truth about himself.
I do admire his honesty and sincerity , I give him credit to that.
And now, as I type this entry, I’m still thinking if he deserves to have my heart. After all this years, I’m still thinking if I deserve a man like him. I’m praying not for signs, but for guidance. That may God help us both in our journeys to come.
I do love him so despite our differences. But then again…
I’m still afraid to take the plunge…
May God help us both.
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Hello Anne,
Thanks for dropping by! And thanks for the comment. I’m still in shock after all that he had said to me… And im still afraid of taking the friendship that we had to the next level. It’s been years since my past relationship and it was hell. Hope you can’t blame me, I don’t wanna be torn again..
Hope I could get through this…
Thanks again for the comment Anne, I really appreciate it! 
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Hi Cristal,
I chanced upon your website because am looking for Earth Run feedbacks when I saw this post and can’t help to comment on it. Me too had been on the same situation as you are in right now. I know how it feels to find out several truths that you would’ve chosen not to hear. But finding the courage to tell you the truth despite having fun on the rest of the day is truly impressive. He must’ve been planning to let it all out but scared at the same time of what the truth might do to your relationship. What I did then was took a little space away from everyone else and decide if all’s gonna be worth the “plunge”. What mattered to me that time is finding my happiness and that place can be found nowhere else but beside that same man who lied and courageously told the truth. We’ve been together for 10 years now and our relationship has never been better after that unimaginable phase in our lives. Hope you get through it all…=)
Posted by Anne at April 27, 2010, 6:35 pm