Am I not entitled to have my own opinion?

Due to some certain circumstances, I edited two of my previous post and keep it private. (Not deleted, but made the blog post in private mode) because people reading it may get mad and/or furious on everything that is being typed in this blog of mine. 

I even deleted some of my post in one of my microblogging sites (on plurk)  because I aired out something that I had just observed a while ago. 

It is, because my quiet nature wants to speak. And there are people reacting (violently?) on what I had just said.  

So…am I not entitled to have my own opinion?  

This blog has served my purpose, along with the sites I handled. It is to release all the thoughts that’s running through my mind about anything and everything that has happened in my life, this personal online space has been my refuge and  my breather. The cristal.i.ph blog is me. And no one, not even my family, my friends or my special someone can force me to shut up. 

Just let me rant here ok?

I never force you to read my post anyway. 

Torn

Yknow what? it’s hard for me to trust you again after what you’ve said on your facebook and blog post. So don’t blame me for being such a hardheaded bitch. It will take days, weeks, months or even years to forget everything. Though you’ve already deleted every post you’ve made, every word you said has already etched in my heart. It will be a constant reminded of how immature WE really are. It’s our own fault why we ended up like this…torn, battered down…

 I know, it really looks unreasonable, I’d hurt you fiirst but who could blame me? You hurt me big time.

I still love you and I can’t deny that.  But it’s hard for me to trust you again. Sincere as it may seem, but I can’t see that through your constant messaging through text and YM. If you could do something to trust you again, like courting me and such, maybe I could love you again, just like before.

And now I hate you for letting me go just like that.

So it’s goodbye then.  For good.

you.ruined.me

A simple joke can make or break a relationship, and in my case, not only it ruins the relationship, it could literally tear you apart. It’s like you’ve been put inside the shredder,slowly tearing you into tiny bits…or it could be as worse as being gang raped by unknown street rats and left you naked in public.

Yes I’ve been very wrong to made such a silly joke, I’m such a child at heart really. And I apologize for what I did.

But I won’t forgive you for everything you’ve said against me. The cold, nasty below the belt blog post and status messages is so unforgivable. IDK if you kneel down at me asking an apology for every deregatory word that you’ve said, or making up for everything for the shitty slurs…what you said makes me realize that I’m such a stupid little bitch. Would you think removing all your post against me will make me come back to you? not at all.

Not in a million years, not even a lifetime.

I hate you for making me a bitch that you really want me to be.

You ruined me big time.

Get out of my life dickhead. And don’t ever come back.

Hello there, this is me, still surviving…

Yes I’m here at the new office and I’m still coping with the new coping setup. 

As of now I had no problems in the office except the early morning commute from our humble home to the new office. Seeing the people waiting for the upcoming train and/or the skipped train for more than an hour is much more worse than being stuck in the traffic because many of us were frustrated/angry/hallucinating/hungy while waiting. Plus all of us LRT/MRT commuters were being stuck inside the train itself like a canned sardine. I think I already had a phobia in riding the Light Rail Transit in the morning. Hope there’s another way in going to my office… 

Office stuff is still ok as long as we’re happy as a team+having my buddy on my side. My moi has been my strengh and happiness in the office, and our love *mushy stuff lol!* has helped each other to survive our usual workload. 

Yes this is me, still surviving and still alive…

 *to be continued…*