Anatole France
Carpe diem!
October 14, 2010
Yes im running out of options but as an optimistic person I believe that good things will come and miracles do happen.
“carpe diem”, or “seize the day”, this has been my friend Chito’s motto. Right now, im enjoying the remaining days here in the office. As much as I want to stay until the year ends,still there’s now a slim chance for me to retain my stay here. And the best I can do right now is to enjoy every minute of my stay here while finding a decent place to work, just like here.
I already applied for different positions here in the office yet i had no luck in passing any of them. The last exam, the one for web copywriting post is a major heartbreak for me. I did my best in making an article and still no luck. B was very optimistic in me transferring to the post but no luck. He knows that the series of articles is a good read for he himself checked my work and he said that it was a good post (with no corrections and such).
“Hakuna matata” means “no worries”, also one of Chito’s life mottos. Taken from the animated movie “The Lion King”, the song hakuna matata means to throw all your worries in life and just enjoy the things around you. I had too many problems in life and I know it’s hard to just scrap all the pain away. For as the bible said, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” (1 Peter 5:7) I know that HE will never forsake me at this time of despair. I trust him and HE never fails.
Yes im sad for everything that happened in me. But I don’t wanna get feel the pain. Somehow, I believe that everything will be all right in the end, and I trust in the Lord for everything.
Praying for a miracle
HE has been with me for the longest time.
HE has saved me from everything.
HE is my personal confidante,
my best companion,
my protector and my savior.
I love HIM more than anything else in this world.
I already seen the results and it was no luck. now it’s time to move on.
But even though I had a slim chance of staying here in the office before the year ends, still im keeping my hopes high.
I don’t want any sympathies. I am sick and tired of people stressing out and being depressed because of their own defeats. Though I had my own share of emo /wrist moments because of such, still I keep on fighting every negative vibes that evolves around me.For this had affected me big time,thus making me a big failure.
I’m open for new opportunites. As I said to my previous post, i want to learn new things and I don’t wanna stuck up to the job that bores me big time.
I want to grow more as a person and as an employee.
I went to Baclaran church with B and I prayed. Somehow our trip from Pasig to Pasay has helped me relieve the pain that I am having right now. Now it’s time to throw my worries and let God take full control in my life.
“Lord, please help me to stand up again, I was turned down many times this year. I pray that there’s someone who can adopt me and make me useful for the job. I’m currently stuck here. The job that im doing is making me nuts, and I’m no longer useful. Pls help me to become whole again, I love the company and I love the people around me even though I disappoint some people because of my work performance.
Lord, right now I leave everything in your hands. Please be there within my reach whatever happens. I don’t wanna dissappoint my loved ones esp. Papa, Mama, Tcel and B. I know that they want me to succeed, and I don’t wanna fail them.
I know there’s a slim chance for me to stay for a little while in the office, but I’m still hoping for a last chance to excel by making myself useful to another position.
Thank you Lord for being there for me, always. For making me strong. Thank you Lord that even though at tough times like this you’re still there, and I can’t thank you enough because of the blessings that you gave to me. Thank you Lord God. Amen.”
loving, hating and loving myself more
October 12, 2010
i don’t want to elaborate anything about what I’m feeling right now and why I’m feeling like this. but to sum things up, my work sucks, the people around me sucks, the internet connection sucks and even my family sucks. worse, even the one I cherished the most made me the worst I’m in. Now who would have thought that all of these has hit me rock-bottom? that I almost forgot the meaning of “loving thyself first before loving others”? this is now the time that I need to fix myself, my job and the desires of my heart, before it’s too late. Im currently exploring new things, correcting every mistakes that i made and learning from them. so far, i think im getting better into the craft. Went back to the choir. Singing has been my first and only love. No one can’t take it away. And I vow to sing till eternity. I want to reach out to my network of long lost friends, friends who have been there through my ups and downs, the ones who accepted me as I am. They were the ones that I lost contact since the day I entered into the relationship. They keep on rambling about me being isolated in my whole new world, still they were the ones that I cherished the most. not him, but THEM. they’ve been with me first and they know me and my crazy temperament way better than he is. one thing I also realized is that I cant just dump all my girlfriends for just one guy alone. and I just can’t isolate myself to everybody. he may come and gone but my friends can’t. I need my guy and gay friends. I had a lot of guy and gay friends, and considered some of them my best friends. If ever things went sour and my girl friends were out of reach they were there for me. They were the ones that I could entrust my life with. One thing I also learned is that guy and gay friends never betrayed, cursed and wouldnt say harsh words to its girl friends even though you did something harsh to them. They can also protect and calm you down when things went wrong. Boyfriends can betray, curse you big time and can do verbal or even physical attacks when things in the relationship turns sour, but my guy and gay friends won’t. Instead, they just go with the flow and laugh everything away. Yes im currently bored with my job. I remember my brother blurting out, “paulit ulit paulit ulit, nakakabobo nakabobo”. My job is an endless cycle of routinary work that makes me feel so stuck up with it. I want to learn new things. I need a new job that is challenging, entertaining and fun. And I think it’s time to smell the fresh air of the new work environment. Care to help me my friend? I’m currently updating my resume. *wink wink!*
My thesis defense experience
October 10, 2010Few weeks back, I was asked to become the guest speaker in one of the seminars organized by COMSSO. Of course I said yes, knowing that I’m gonna share my knowledge on SEO to the students in UE.
But that was different. WAY different.
Being an SEO can’t be compared of those who worked as a programmer, Network administrator, Web designer and Graphic artist. But then being an SEO needs to collaborate with Web designers, Artists, Writers, analyst and online marketing staff for website optimization and implementation. SEO work has its own set of responsibilities, and though it includes knowledge in some programming language (a little programming is needed) still its goal is to increase the site’s visibility in the internet.
Well anyway, let’s proceed on what happened in the thesis defense…
I arrived in the morning and the group of students are already lined up. On our group, We are assigned in three library systems to different schools and an inventory transation system. two of my co-panelist are oviously working as a programmer in their respective offices and I must say, I was very envious in their current job post. I was never gifted in programming and I learned a little in every programming class. I only focused in website creation, design and implementation. Perhaps the things that I had learned in school has helped me in my current work after all, for HTML and a bit of design is required in my post. but still…
And the group of students came.
And another.
And here comes lunch.
And another.
And the last one.
And the drama was over.
To summarize the event, the thesis defense is very challenging to my part. And as I remember the things that our thesis group did when I was in college, We dressed up in our utmost corporate attire, having our camera to document the defense and constantly rehearsing our reports, having our mindset on passing the defense, praying for our defense, praying for our panelist to pass us, praying that no one topples down, praying, praying, praying, and still praying that everything will be ok. I keep on looking at the students and I asked myself if I did something that they were currently doing right now during the defense. Of course I keep mum about this for I need to focus in their presentation.
What I observed to most students during their presentation is tha they were almost whispering while explaining their part. I know that they were dowwnright nervous, but this is a minus factor for me. I need to see self confidence in every student that has an utmost desire to pass the defense. Their self confidence, if mantained and seen, can also be applicable in real life, after graduating college and finding a job that fits to their liking. Hope their nervousness can be lesssened.
Another thing I observed is the thesis documents of the students. One of my co-panelist has done her job very well in observing their errors in their documents. It’s important to to check the margins, header and footer alighment, and the most important, the information inside in every thesis document. It must be concise and well-made. No grammar errors, no erratums from tables and diagrams. All required information needed in the document must be complete in order to have a perfect thesis document.
So far, three of the thesis groups passed the defense except the first one who had major errors in their proposed system itself. And though they passed the redefense, still we’re hoping that on their second thesis (system implementation) they already meet their thesis document requirements and have their system up and running.
Somehow, I missed being a college student, yet im happy that i’m now able to share my knowledge to the students who are getting ready to become one of the best in the IT industry in the future.
On RH bill and the Catholicism in the Philipines
October 7, 2010I really admire Carlos Celdran’s support to the RH bill and the CBCP’s decision against the said bill. the former set foot on the Manila Cathedral and set a performance that opens the eyes of most Filipinos in the said bill.
For me the reproductive bill needs to be passed. The church should not hinder the said bill. Yes, the bible said that we need to “forth and multiply” but on our nation’s society, one needs “not to go forth and multiply” anymore. Metro Manila is now overpopulated, Most of us lived in poverty. More and more streetchildren has been seen anywhere, roaming around and begging for food and money, sleeping in sidewalks while sniffing something inside the plastic containers in their hands, pickpocketing, etc. Not only that,mothers abandoning their children and unborn children being in the news has been a common thing, and women being impregated in their teen years is definitely not a good sign.
For me, the Reproductive Health bill will be a big help in order to prevent this. Men and women will become responsible in their own reproductive health and their own well being. Families can plan on having a kid and couples can practice safe sex and prevent pregnancy.
IDK why the church is against the bill, for the contraceptives used to prevent the baby and not kiling it. You see, there’s a huge difference between preventing and killing. and I think it’s better to prevent getting pregnant if they know they will not able to provide for their kids than watching them starve to death.
To our modern day Rizal, Mr. Carlos Celdran, I salute you for bringing the message clear to all modern-day Damasos.
Hope that the bill will pass despite everything.
