It’s time to reflect (last post for 2010 on random thoughts, birthdays, christmas and new year)

It is indeed the worst year I ever had. I will end this year with no work, money and anything else that makes me sane. Everything around me seems to keep on backstabbing me until the day I went out of the office for good. But come to think of it, despite every shitty thing that happened I’m still happy for the things that occured. I managed to make myself happy in a simplest things, appreciate the smallest blessings our almighty has gave to me and to forgive those who had hurt me. The later may be hard for me (esp. those who broke my heart in million bits and pieces) still as a devout catholic that I am, the teachings of love and forgiveness has helped me to let go of all the hatred that I keep on holding on since day one. I don’t wanna seclude myself in my own prison cell, I need to break free, and to find my own path towards peace and tranquility.

I think it’s time to have close contact with friends (even long lost friends) who were there with me whenever I’m down, stressed out, heartbroken and even at times when I had my mood swings. I’m thankful that I gained lots of them, and they came from different siZes, shapes and colors (lol!) and having them means a lot to me.

Since my last birthday celebration, I prayed that everything will be ok this coming 2011, and have all my plans of going back to school while having a regular job to come true. I know in my heart that I can do this soon, I just need to push myself and to have enough funds in order to pursue this.

I’m also happy to celebrate my 27th with my bestest giirlfriends in the planet, and I love them all. <3

Also love the fact that I was bought up believing that christmas do exist and the concept of celebrating christmas. It is, a season where families gather and cheer for the savior being born in a manger two thousand years ago, as the scriptures from the Bible’s old testament had said. The scriptures fortells the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and this is where it has begun. The 25th of December marks the Christmas day because It is we all need to commemorate the day our lord came down with us to save us from our sins. It is a constant reminder that He is there for us, and because of this, we are thankful that Jesus loves us. I don’t believe that there’s no such thing as christmas, for if christmas doesnt exist, it looks like Jesus Christ doesnt born and live with us at all. And lastly, I think it’s sad to not have any christmas at all. :’(

And because of the crazy things that happened to me this crappy year of 2010, I prayed that the upcoming year will be MY year - a year of hapiness, high hopes, promises and dreams. No more emo post, no more heartaches. Just plain hapiness and contentment with God, my family, friends and loves ones.

I would like to end up this with a new year’s resolution for 2011:

1. To love myself first before loving others
2. To deposit at least 500 pesos in my back account (in bimonthly basis)
3. Update my Prulife account
4. Update my oDesk account and have a permanent online job (no more linkbuilding pls! just pure social media work)
5. To have more time in my line of commitments (Coro, sideline, reunion with long lost friends)
6. To take IT classes soon (anytime this year)
7. Buy a new cabinet for my own personal use - soon.
8. To have a new hairdo/hair color - soon. (either an anime inspired curls or a lighter color for ultra anime look! )
9. To treat myself to a massage every two months  (at least)
10. To join fun runs for a cause (especially RunRio-organized fun runs)
11. To save money for out of town trips
12. To end  up being in a good paying (but non-stressful) job soon (I think this one should be in the top list lol!)
13. To read books soon!
14. To find time to draw/sketch soon
15. To take some piano lessons soon
16. (will add some soon)

Have a blessed christmas and new year to all!