If you could just realize… I’m disappointed by you…

What to do if a friend fails you just because of him/her being unreasonable?

Really, I was in rage just by now.

Was pissed off because a friend of mine cancelled some plans in a jiffy, just because tinatamad lang siya.

And though I may look cool whenever im about to be talked about that thing but deep inside, I was sooo angry and pissed because of what happened. Added to the extreme rage that im having is her not taking it seriously, instead adding some joke about it, and her asking me to treat her to a fast food. 

I know it’s pay day but WHO WOULD WANT TO TREAT SOMEONE WHO MANAGED TO CANCEL SOME PLANS IN AN INSTANT?

It came as a suprise when there are things that are already planned when the certain person unexpectedly cancelled everything just because of some reasons that I really find unbearable, without thinking of the other that has made an effort to make the plan worked…

 if only they realized that we’re all yuppies, living and breathing in the corporate world. And the only way to ease the pain of seeing the four corridors of our office is to break free and unwind in every way that we can…

Seems like Pensionados didnt realized the pain that im going through…

For they never realized how much im stressed, tired and fucked up I really am…

(update: and after I wrote this post on notepad, I received another hate letter from a former choirmate tru facebook, geez get a life ok? ok, I think I need to explain on her…)

Back to the drawing board

Me is now back from my not-so-creative self…

I just got my salary for this year and being an impulsive shopper that I am, instead of buying a pair of black ballet flats that I saw from SM, I bought an expensive set of colored pencils that I’ve been eyeing for at the Office Warehouse few seconds before the mall’s closing time.

And as I open the boxful of colored pencils, I grabbed my vintage sketch book and started sketching…

And realized that I need a new one.

And so instead, I opened my planner and started to think…

and…draw…and do some coloring…and such…

and as I waited for my files to compressed (and transfered to Coy’s flash drive) I managed to doodle some unknown characters that instantly came to mind.

And even if I slept very late, I was completely happy fool who managed to create something outrageous.

 (Seriously needs to buy a new sketch pad now… XD)

~Cristal 

is hopeful…

2009 for me, I think, is one of the crappiest. Definitely NOT a great experience at all.

I was in the verge of losing myself because of some certain things that happened-friends departed, losing momentum, can’t keep up with the drastic changes around me, being sickly sick than the usual and as usual, being loveless than ever. it is as if I lost a part of myself… 

But  I’ve learned one thing during this ordeal-not to give up. 

God has been good because he’s always there, not giving me up, telling me in a whispering voice to always motivate myself and be as optimistic as possible if everything around me is now giving up from all the trials that came around us. And by trusting him, I became a stronger person than ever. 

It’s the most important thing that I’ve learned. And I’ll keep it as long as possible.

As the new year unfolds, I tend to keep track of the things that I need to do. To be more organized, and to always keep in touch with everyone, not to be sheltered from all the chaos outside the metropolis. I may face good and bad things around me but as long as God is there everything will be alright with the use of God’s strength and will.

May this year be a fruitful one for us all.

Hope that everything will turn out alright this year.

XOXO, Cristal 

Tis the season to be jolly…

First and foremost, a blessed christmas to all! 

Seriously though, this christmas is a bit different than the previous christmas that I used to do, for there are so many things that happened: 

I broke the chain. - After so many years of completing the dawn mass, I did not complete the dawn mass this year, due to my high fever (from bronchitis) and  the uberly tiresome choir schedule last 23rd of December. Well actually I had extremely high fever last week (few days before my birthday) andon the day of my birthday, fever went worst and though I went to the dawn mass at that time, I was uberly late on going to work and worst, went undertime because of my condition. and up to the next day, I never woke up to the usual simbang gabi schedule and slept to the whole day. I was dizzy the whole day and can’t work properly because of that. 

Christmas shopping rush -  Instead of doing the usual christmas shopping on that time, I NEVER did the usual shopping spree early. Instead, I did the unthinkable-christmas rush to the nearest mall to shop for clothes and some christmas gifts for my siblings. 

Losing my voice - Yes, I did lose my voice in the previous years during december, but this year is TOO much! in addition to the bronchitis that im having I lose mmy voice longer than I expected. 

But despite all the shit that happened, im thankful for something this christmas… and that is LOVE. 

I never thought that love can be as special as I think it is. And I never thought that love can be found just around the corner. 

It is never selfish, it is a selfless act of caring, complimenting and being with the person that you’ve love to be with. It is all about being comfortable with your own skin while being with the one you love. 

And I already found the love that I’m looking for. (I just hope that he felt the same way too…hahaha!)

As our family and I we’re celebrating these festive day, I prayed that everything will be alright in everything. And I’m thankful for everything that happened-good or bad-in our lives. It is a soulful blessing that ever happened, as if I already found the reason why im here… and everything happens for a reason… and it gives us a valuable lesson for all of us. 

Well that’s all for now. 

Don’t forget to thank GOD for everything, for right now it is HIM who gave us the reason to celebrate. It’s HIS day today, and HE is the reason for all. 

Happy holidays everyone! Merry christmas and God Bless! <3

On turning 26

And so the blogger is now 26 years old, yay! 

I am now officially in my late twenties, but seriously, I don’t wanna grow old. and here are my reasons: 

• I don’t want to have a boyfriend-yet! (not until the person that I liked the most proposed, or if we share some mutual feelings for each other)
• I want to enjoy everything while im not attached to anyone around (I had so many girlfriends who are now stay-in house wives who regrets being tied down at the early age; some asked me to hang out with them, which is ok, but because of their husbands they were having their own curfews which is so NOT cool…)
• I don’t want to be dependent to anyone (and I really mean not being dependent to anyone who can rely on, as much as possible I want to stand out and do everything within my reach without anyone’s help)
• I want to do something more (and this means going back to school, explore the world, meet new people, seeing fresh faces, learning and looking for something new and exciting)
• And lastly, I want to help my parents (in financial means, of course!)

But that doesnt mean that I had no plans to settle down. It’s just that I want to enjoy everything around me, while waiting for someone who can swept me off my feet.  And also, I want to be a successful wannabe by helping the family first before tieing a knot to someone. So maybe having a boyfriend is ok but being married is NOT! 

Anyway, I’m glad that this whole year is a blast, and I realized so many things that reflect in my life, met so many friends and I think I become more of a positive person. And as much as I want to retain old lifestyles, I think there’s no harm in trying new things…  The experiences that I gained in the last twenty-five years makes me become more of the person that I am right now. And I tend to learn more and to explore more. 

And so I would like to share my year-long plans for while im still 26: 

• Having a boyfriend (who I really love the most and would love me back. Not just this scumbag who would like to have me because they had no more options… XD) 
• Going back to school (and im still in search for a “perfect” school that offers a short course on animation and/or graphic design, in a budget-friendly price.)
• On buying a DSLR (I envy my officemates who had a professional camera with them, and also cali, my choirmate who has an Canon EOS… Mom doesnt want me to lend her digicam and Sister’s camera is just too obsolete. Also want to take pictures of beautiful things around me, seriously.)
• Music lessons (because of the undying love for music, I really want to take a short course on music and to play some instruments, maybe a piano or a guitar is fine, violin is much much better )
• Vacation somewhere in the Philippines (other from my home province, I want to travel and explore other sides of my home country… I think it’s kinda awesome!)

So here’s my christmas/birthday gift… care to give me one? (just kidding!)

And as for my birthday wish? just one thing: to have a stable career as a thriving SEO marketer and a chorister at the same time. That’s it.

So here ends my birthday post. Hope everyting’s fine on this day onwards. I will definitely looking forward to the brighter light for many years to come.

Cristal <3