Getting ready for my departure

The office has been my second home for the last two years and even though I had some issues here still I love this place. Aside from the whole of SEO team and my hubby on my side, the office environment makes me breathe despite the tons of work load being given to us on a weekly basis. I can say that I love everything about US Auto Parts.

It has announced last year about the plans of moving to another convenient location in Boni, Mandaluyong. USAP wants to merge the Pasig and Makati offices into one lavish looking office in Cybergate Plaza. The plan itself was great. But as time goes by the reality struck into us.

The new rules has been implemented, and not everyone was happy about the new dress code, workstation restrictions, sharing of workstations and everything in it. It makes me think that despite the fact that we are all excited about the big move in the new office still the restrictions hinders us all from being excited to move to the new home. 

Right now we’re now getting ready to pack up some things here in my workstation. I’m gonna miss the building beside Jade Palace that we once called home.

Goodbye RCC center. Thank you for everything.  

Once upon a time…

Once upon a time… 

 There was this blogger who wished to be loved. Too many imperfections as been seen by this lass, from her morena  complexion to her uncontrollable temperament. She longs for love for 26 years. She has been in love and been torn for three times and for three years, she’s been able to get in touch with her real self my God’s pressence and by her close circle of friends. 

And…

There was also this blogger who has been torn for so many times because of the series of misadventures he’s been before…An achiever in his younger days, now seeking to be one of the well-known literary geniuses in the near future… He who calls himself a relentless poet and a hopeless romantic has been in love, torn and eventually got back to his knees for so many times and… 

They met.

And fell to each other’s arms. 

Desperately.

Possesively.

And lovingly.

(to be continued…)

Enough

After weeks of courting/deliberating/arguing/blah, I decided to call it quits. 

What made me decided to stop is the last conversation that we had through IM.

We had this exchange of sweet nothings, since he’s just upstairs, doing his daily work routine. I almost arrived late at work, and next thing Iknew is he’s gonna lambast his seriousnes in courting me…

And then I said to myself, “I had enough of this”.

The truth is that, other from our daily exchange of sweet musing, we had our set of daily arguements as well. His attitude of being matampuhin seems so immature for a 27 year old guy who has 3 chldren from his previous relationship.

The last thing he said was the last straw.

One thing I also realized is the daily exhange of arguements that we had. I decided to call it quits because it’s not healthy to have a daily exchange of verbal arguements. The last of it is the worst I’ve ever heard. 

 A realization struck me: since we were now having these series of arguements what if we were already in a relationship? I bet it will get worse. 

This made me want to stop this courtship.

I may forgive him for what he did but that doesnt mean that I’ll continue with this scenario.

I’m trying to save ourselves from hurting each other. I hope he understands that.

Much better if we’re only friends and nothing more than that.  

My personal thoughts on the upcoming Madz Et Al 2010

It’s roughly a week before the MADZ Et Al choral festival and I’ve never been so excited, and nervous at the same time. Excited because once again, our choir is back on stage to perform to the public. Nervous because of the lineup of songs, the lineup of singers in our group (since most of us were newbies) and we just found out that we’re singing the same song with one of the Et Al choirs that will perform on the same day. *sigh*

Since I was assigned as the section head in the choir, I tried my best to unite the group, esp. the sopranos. As you can see, singing the soprano part is a cruicial thing, since most of the songs are being led by us. And the pressure has been on ME, and not on my fellow voice-mates.  

But even though I’m nervous about this event, still I’m excited about this… I love the feeling of performing on stage with my fellow choirmates. The harmony that we have during the performance is just magical and the appreciation of the people watching us on stage is just great! 

Hope and pray that our performance will be appreciated by  the MADZ (Philippine Madrigal Singers), the Et Al choirs and the people who will came to watch us and other choirs perform. I’m sure that it will be a blast!

Of heartaches, shocking truths and acceptance

Yesterday I had a heart to heart talk with my buddy after a mind-blowing game of billards at USAP sportsfest. Yes it was a happy moment, and I couldnt agree more that being with him is one helluva ride.

But as we had our zesty merienda treat at one of the major malls in Mandaluyong, we unravel the age-old pages of our heartbreak stories…after I told him the series of heartache stories from my previous beaus, his was even worse.

It breaks my heart to hear the entire truth. Still I couldnt believe everything that he had said. My heart pangs as I hear every nook and crany that he had said, I was thinking, Lord, pls tell me that everything that he had said is a lie. But it was not.

I was speechless after everything that he had revealed.My mind went  blank. I want to run away, curse him like crazy. But I was just there, listening to every word that he had said. Broken, torn and almost into tears. And as I looked at him I can sense that it mustve been hard for him to tell me this…

But come to think of it, it takes guts for a man to tell everything to the girl he cherished the most the real truth about himself.

I do admire his honesty and sincerity , I give him credit to that.

And now, as I type this entry, I’m still thinking if he deserves to have my heart. After all this years, I’m still thinking if I deserve a man like him. I’m praying not for signs, but for guidance. That may God help us both in our journeys to come.

I do love him so despite our differences. But then again…

I’m still afraid to take the plunge…

May God help us both.