Product of boredom

Seriously, I can’t think of anything else to write. I’m not even in the mood for doing some work related stuff. maybe it wasnt my day after all. everything went black as i stare at the monitor, and even if im writing this post, everything I see is much more of the blue screen of death (on my computer monitor) only in white. 

Series of events happened and it actually pisses me off. A friend of mine also told me that im now an emo person because of the status messages that they’ve seen in my social media accounts in friendster, facebook, plurk and twitter. i dont want any disagreements because of this, and im really sorry that it becomes a hassle for them reading each and every single emo /wrist wall post, it wont happen again.

But shit happens, and we all felt the same when someone pisses you off. the recent thing that made me mad is one of my former choirmates ranting because of me writing a blog post about her on my wordpress blog (I havent written everything against her on the blog, well except here.) And as much as I want to reply on her message I disregard it and take it as a minor misunderstanding. i.ph is now wordpress, THIS is my personal rant blog while my other blog is a choral news (not rant) blog.

One thing I realized these past few days after most of my choirmates left is that im still here. I was thinking to myself why, what’s the use of being in here while others are gone for good? Methinks God is just around the corner at that time, 3 of my close friends (co-sopranos) managed to be there, making us a solid group. It was a blessing not just for me but for the choir group that im in. being a soprano makes us important, for our voice makes all the melodies in a song, and also sopranos are the ones who moves the entire choir, making us the most powerful of all voices. but let’s not forget the Tenors, Altos and basses who are there to create the melody led by us Sopranos, for they are important as well. 

Work, however is becoming boring as always. but it’s a good thing everything went well. I think we still had our hangovers from the Christmas vacation that we long for some longer days of relaxation and fun. and right now summer comes near, and we are now planning to have a company outing as early as now.

And because of this, it makes us more lazy, LOL.

Also hoping to make it to the rehearsal of the former choir that im in (UE chorale). One of my friends in the choir emailed me and asked me to be part of the group that is mostly alumnis, and Im seriously excited about it. i had tons of memories from the day I joined the group. And though im not as good as my fellow sopranos in the chorale group, but the experience that I had with them is really worthwhile. 

And so this is it. I hope readers who drop by here would like this entry. till then. 

<3,

~Cristal 

And the personal photoblog starts here

I just bought a  4-month-old Sony Ericsson C702 from a friend/closest sempai/secret crush just now, and before I toss the Nokia 1110, I need to save my contacts, for they are saved on the phone memory.

I’m now excited yo yake some pictures and start photoblogging! yipee!!!!! ^_____________^

Goodbye Nokia 1110, I was fun to have you for the past [__] years, but it’s 2010 and I need to have something “new” and useful…teehee…

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**I just realized that there are some people who thought I was plastic, just because I rant everything in here.  A blog forms as an online journal, and this personal blog contains more of the emotions that I can’t really express to everyone. For the record, I don’t pretend to be sweet to someone I really hate… 

Just a message for you: And I really don’t hate you. I can’t be pretentious to everyone. I can say anything what my mind says so.  I was just pissed off by your actions.  And I don’t blame your boyfriend (nee hubby) for what you did. It’s your life anyway.

For the record, I’m not the only one who thinks that you let us down.

And I can be brutally frank sometimes. Especially in here. 

And I really mean what I said. 

(And brfore I forgot, I never mentioned anything against you in my wordpress blog.)

And one more thing, if you can’t handle everything what I just said here in my blog, then click alt+f4, ctrl+alt+del, or ctrl+w . 

As simple as that. 

If you could just realize… I’m disappointed by you…

What to do if a friend fails you just because of him/her being unreasonable?

Really, I was in rage just by now.

Was pissed off because a friend of mine cancelled some plans in a jiffy, just because tinatamad lang siya.

And though I may look cool whenever im about to be talked about that thing but deep inside, I was sooo angry and pissed because of what happened. Added to the extreme rage that im having is her not taking it seriously, instead adding some joke about it, and her asking me to treat her to a fast food. 

I know it’s pay day but WHO WOULD WANT TO TREAT SOMEONE WHO MANAGED TO CANCEL SOME PLANS IN AN INSTANT?

It came as a suprise when there are things that are already planned when the certain person unexpectedly cancelled everything just because of some reasons that I really find unbearable, without thinking of the other that has made an effort to make the plan worked…

 if only they realized that we’re all yuppies, living and breathing in the corporate world. And the only way to ease the pain of seeing the four corridors of our office is to break free and unwind in every way that we can…

Seems like Pensionados didnt realized the pain that im going through…

For they never realized how much im stressed, tired and fucked up I really am…

(update: and after I wrote this post on notepad, I received another hate letter from a former choirmate tru facebook, geez get a life ok? ok, I think I need to explain on her…)

Back to the drawing board

Me is now back from my not-so-creative self…

I just got my salary for this year and being an impulsive shopper that I am, instead of buying a pair of black ballet flats that I saw from SM, I bought an expensive set of colored pencils that I’ve been eyeing for at the Office Warehouse few seconds before the mall’s closing time.

And as I open the boxful of colored pencils, I grabbed my vintage sketch book and started sketching…

And realized that I need a new one.

And so instead, I opened my planner and started to think…

and…draw…and do some coloring…and such…

and as I waited for my files to compressed (and transfered to Coy’s flash drive) I managed to doodle some unknown characters that instantly came to mind.

And even if I slept very late, I was completely happy fool who managed to create something outrageous.

 (Seriously needs to buy a new sketch pad now… XD)

~Cristal 

is hopeful…

2009 for me, I think, is one of the crappiest. Definitely NOT a great experience at all.

I was in the verge of losing myself because of some certain things that happened-friends departed, losing momentum, can’t keep up with the drastic changes around me, being sickly sick than the usual and as usual, being loveless than ever. it is as if I lost a part of myself… 

But  I’ve learned one thing during this ordeal-not to give up. 

God has been good because he’s always there, not giving me up, telling me in a whispering voice to always motivate myself and be as optimistic as possible if everything around me is now giving up from all the trials that came around us. And by trusting him, I became a stronger person than ever. 

It’s the most important thing that I’ve learned. And I’ll keep it as long as possible.

As the new year unfolds, I tend to keep track of the things that I need to do. To be more organized, and to always keep in touch with everyone, not to be sheltered from all the chaos outside the metropolis. I may face good and bad things around me but as long as God is there everything will be alright with the use of God’s strength and will.

May this year be a fruitful one for us all.

Hope that everything will turn out alright this year.

XOXO, Cristal