A letter to you

Dear __________, 

 I had this urge to write about this current crisis that you’re facing right now. 

And I’m sorry to say this, but after sending your link to your blog, I kept reading it every now and then. I may look like an online stalker but I can sense that every post is a honest-to-goodness post that is really worth reading.

Shall I say, that I really feel for you, that it really hurts a lot not to be chosen by the girl you love, that she chose the other guy from you… and yes, at this time it’s better if you leave everything in God’s grace. For only He can save you from the hurt…

I may sound stupid but after telling me your feelings for me I saved the entire chat log and… WHY DID I SAVE THAT LOG?! maybe you could be the one who could save my heart from pain… I can’t say that it was really you that I was looking for for a very long time… but as you’ve said on your blog that you’ll wait for her within two weeks… pls do take notice of that. I know that you want to move on, to make your life as normal as possible, as if she never existed…

And I will give you enough time to access your feelings for us…  (me and her)

I’m just being careful. I just can’t give my heart to anyone just easily. I know how it feels like being hurt and I don’t want us to be in bad terms in the end.  

Will wait for you soon…

~ c 

Just a random thought…

- I hate people who just rely on others and not on their own strength.

-I hate those who think of everything in a negative/pessimistic way.

-I hate people who spreads NVs on others.

-I hope that everyone would cooperate, esp. those who were now veterans in our field.

-I would definitely love it if I had a raise.

-I need money to pay for all our financial woes.

-I would like to work in a company where I could do the things that I really like the most.

-I hope that God has an IM or an email (at least) so that I may able to communicate with Him interactively (I just hope that the internet connection is fast!) 

-I long to be love and be loved.

-will you be the answer to my long-forgotten prayer?

-I’m craving for something…fresh fruit or  some food perhaps?

-I  miss drawing.

-I miss YOU.  

Things that hinders me…

I really got used to be a hopeless romantic chap who dreams of finding true love amidst the chaos…

I can’t seem to get it at all… has the years of being single for years made me a rigid person whan it comes to love?

or is it the responsibility that hinders me from entering into a relationship?

or is it the love of doing the things that I love that makes me stop from having one?

or… the thought that I want to achieve my life-forgotten dreams that makes me say that I don’t want to have someone by my side…yet?

Hate to admit it but all questions are answered “yes”.

As you can see, it is my responsility to help my family to prevent financial woes. I still had a brother who is still in school and his tuition fee (as well as his other school expenses) is such a burden for us. I still love to sing in our choir despite the late-night rehearsals and tight schedules, esp. now that I’m one of the section lead… I still want to go to the art school in the hopes of becoming an animator (pls Lord, I really want to accomplish this before I become 30…)

But I do admit, I need someone on my side… who will support me all the way… who can be proud of me because of what I had become…

and I don’t want someone who wants me to tie down from one corner,

will you be the one who can save me?

~Cristal

Blessings <3

It is when I realized that I am capable of doing so many things at the same time. But sometimes there are some things that requires immediate attention. Something that makes one neglect the other. I know that i’m not responsible enough but as much as possible I try to do everything at once.

 I lost too many freelance works recently, and the recent loss is really not that great. I can say that may be, or regretting this in the future, but the loss of the other may be, or maybe not, be a simple blessing in disguise. 

As you can see, I lost another freelance job today. but after I heard the news from the client a friend of mine asked me to be part of his client’s project. And the good thing about this the payment is really good. So I took the offer.

Good times once again!

My first fun run :D

I never been so excited on my first race. As you can see, I invest/save/spend/prepare for this, and as the day goes near the excitement continues to grow more and more.

Come to think of it, I never thought that running is such a healthy trend for now. I checked some sites, forums and blogs about running and there are so many afficionados out there. Some were travelling runners, going to some of the places (and countries) just to run. I was inspired to be like them. But first I need to be in my best condition to run. 

I joined the Globe Run for Home last March 21 and Me, Eric and Isshi (my best buds in my former chorale) joined the event. We went there at 4am and do some nessesary stretching and warm-ups. And after pinning our bib numbers on our singlets we went to the baggage counter to keep our bags. And we went to our own assembly areas and wait for the gun start. 

And as we started, I was shocked for the route, went downside to the Glorietta basement and going up, and the trail to the Buendia flyover going to the fort is HELL! it’s like going to the mountains except there are no trees, no fresh air. Just me, the flyover, the prickly heat, and the scenic view of the buildings in Makati and Taguig in daylight. And as we go along to The Fort, I was happy that we went to the Bonifacio High Street. I never thought that will go back there (My first time was with Coy last year). 

I tried my best to be as fast as I could in the race, but the first 6km of the race has been difficult. But I tried to adjust myself and enjoy the view while running until I finish the race. 

And yes, I finished the 10 kilometer race in 1hr 25 mins. And it was indeed one of the best experience in my life. Some of my friends who are also into running think that I was fast for a newbie who just run for a 10k race. 

I’m not an athletic person,  but doing something like this is certainly one of the greatest I’ve ever been.

 And I would definitely do that again!

For now, we’re planning to join the Mizuno run on April 11 and the Earth day run on the 18th. Looking forward to more fun runs soon!